My Biggest Fear This Year was Over

2018

I started this year with the big of fear, yes about my thesis and my soulmate. No matter what, I should face my fear, I should solve my fear, and I should finish my fear.

Today is not the end of the day but yappy my fear was over. I finished my thesis full of sweat and tears. My sacrifice for my thesis was over and I was graduated. It's not an easy way, it's a hard way but by that, I learn a lot how to be strong and how to be brave. Ok... I won't flashback about what I did, all of them is a process to make me better. The thing that should be grateful is it was over :)

Hmm... Actually, on my graduation day, I think I will be very happy but I don't know why my happiness is not as big as my pain before, not as big as my expectation. Yes, I'm happy but not very happy instead of just happy. It's because I understand that actually is a beginning of my random life, life as a job seeker. But, I push my self to enjoy my moment. Just once in my life.

But, the other source of my happiness is the smile and excitement of my family. The spirit of my mother to prepare my family uniform, my graduation day outfit etc. I'm happy about that...

And the plus point is the presence of my close friend that teach me about love, happiness, and altruism. My close friend that 3 days later be my boyfriend. I always pray to God for special thing in my graduation day, and God sends him for my graduation day to complete my happiness. Actually it's really fast for me, but I don't know, let it flow...